we shall see how long this one lasts. and since my life is not exciting right now, my guess is probably not very long. but who knows? here goes nothing.
23 days.
this is the countdown.
the final countdown.
I will be a college graduate in twenty-three days. I will move back home in twenty-three days. I will have to find a job in twenty-three days. I will leave my best friend of four years in twenty-three days. the first two, I am pretty excited about. the latter two, not so much.
I mean, this is what the past four years have been about, right? my collegiate career is coming to an abrupt end. and don't get me wrong, I am so very ecstatic about being finished with school. BUT it means that I have to step out of my comfort zone and step into what is known by most as the "real world." what do I mean? well, I've been in school since I was the ripe age of five. that is seventeen years that I have been going to school. I'm comfortable. I know my place. I wake up, go to school, do extracurricular activities, go home, etc. I have never had to NOT go to school. so what is going to happen when there is no more school to go to? that is a bit frightening. I have to wake up and go to a forever job. WOAH, HAUS. I have such high hopes for what kind of job that I want, and what is going to happen if I don't get that job? I mean, I suppose that it is all in God's hands and I trust that. but it still frightens me for what is to come.
and what am I going to do without my best friend? yes, the girl drives me crazy sometimes. and yes, I drive her crazy just as much. but we have been through the thickest of thick and the thinnest of thin throughout the past four years. we met two weeks into our collegiate life and have been inseparable ever since. we are two completely different souls, but we mesh pretty well together. and in twenty-three days, I am going to be four hours away. I know that's not exactly across the country, but it's farther than wanted. I want to be right down the hall from her like it's always been. I guess we're going to have to invest in Skype like nobody's business. this is going to be quite the unfortunate situation.
but I guess this is growing up. (Blink 182 lyric, yes)
"so shall we come to look at the world with new eyes."
-Ralph Waldo Emerson
